Day 62

Exhausted. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. Kora was extremely fussy today. She screamed on and off for about 4 hours. Nothing would calm her down.  I'm so sad. I can't even calm down my own child. How am I going to do this? She doesn't want to eat from me. We tried feeding her from a bottle. We tried patting her back. We tried skin to skin. We tried rocking. We tried singing. Nothing worked. We left her crying. I'm so upset. I can't stop crying. I've never felt more useless in my life. I hate seeing her in pain. I hate seeing her cry. I hate seeing her in this place. I'm just so angry today. It's not fair. It's really not.